I've been "Tagged"
this is a new thing to me, but it's something that's been going round the blogs, whoever's tagged has to write about 10 things they love
- thanks to Lilaidi for tagging me, : )
Check out who I've tagged at the bottom of this post!!!!
Here's ten things I love...
To be in a place where I feel at rest and content in God, where I'm quietly joyful, smiling inside, becuase I know He accepts me...even me!!! as His own son, and I know He loves me and cherishes me as such.
I love to know that God is pleased with me for something I have done. It's just I have a habit of taking this too far, developing an attitude where I refuse to accept that God is pleased withme unless I have done something deserving. At the end of the day I can't please Him without faith... not that my deeds don't please Him, but they only do when they are acts of devotion out of love for Him, knowing that He already favours me.
The good I try and do goes nowhere in terms of Saving me, it's only a mark of God's Work in me to change me and make me a witness to the world of how amazing He is.
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To have a really good conversation with someone about Jesus and for them to see that He really loves them. This always brightens up my day, and makes me smile.
When God encourages me when I've been feeling low. I love it when I've been feeling real rubbish, and when God breaks my silence and brings me words of love, reassurance and encouragement. I am so silly with this one though...sometimes I deliberately allow myself to get depressed or find a reason to be angry at myself just so that God can come and rescue me once more. I'm such an attention seeking, affirmation seeking little kid that needs to grow up sometimes. THAT'S A REALLY BIG - "I NEED TO GROW UP"
I love to share the encouragement and comfort that Gof has brought me with someone else who is hurting or feeling lonely, and to be with them as they get a smile back on their face and know they are loved.
To be used to reach out to my brothers and sisters in Christ.
I love it when somone empathises with me (that's me being an attention seekier again)
To cry before God about something (yup I'm a real emotionalist)
To feel I've achieved something (I'm not sure if this one is so healthy!!)
Well well well...
that was interesting. I think I'm quite insecure really. I've been thinking about that for the last day or so. I'm so dependant on knowing I've been a success somehow.
I'm a bit concerned really, because I want my faith in God to be strong enough that I don't go searching for affrimation or acceptance because I am secure and rested in the knowldge that God has blessed me with these.
I want to be strong in Grace and rooted in Love, so that I can be steadfast and perseverng in my walk with God
Time and again I see how quickly I loose trust in God's acceptance of me and love for me. So I turn back to legalism that I can never fulfil until I feel rubbish again.
Then God comes and sits with me,
takes me by the hand,
and gently,
in trust
He helps me to by feet,
encourages me
and sends me out once more to live for Him.
The cycle goes on and on, and I wonder If I'll ever grow up and just get on with life instead of worrying about where I stand with God all the time.
The thing is (and I noticed this today) when I decide to trash my legaalsitic side, I leave behind any sense of healthy discipline also. So soon enough I'm not meeting priorities (like doing my revision) and I get concerned about it.
Over time I'll get more and more upset with myself for not meeting priorities until I reach a point where I really hate myself over it. So I get really angry, and slam back into legalism to try and force myself to live appropriately. I feel I've displeased God by not working hard at school or whatever, and so I try (hopelessly) to redeem myself by imagining that God is commanding me... like an army officer, and that I have to obey every single last order in order to be on okay terms with Him.
Then at some point, God actually speaks. When that happens it's like recognising the voice of a beloved friend, who you are pleased to see and treasure beyond anything or anyone else.
He is loving and understanding, although firm...
I feel broken inside and so silly, yet knowing that God cares for me regardless - which only make me want to cry. All I can think is how Wonderful God is. Then I want to write poetry about God and His encouragement and Counsel.
I want then to share that with the whole world. And for them to really knoww that God is intersted in them - who they are as a person.
That God understands who they are inside and He made them for a purpose.
He knows how you work and how you think
He knows what you enjoy and what you hate
He came to earth, The KING of all creaton, came to this earth...
was spat on and wipped
and insulted and mocked
by His own creations who so arrogantly despised Him
He didn't retaliate, but loved them deeply
He had come to save His people whom He had made
and to wash them clean from all their sin that had ruined them
and make them new
and give them real life...
And He paid the price for you with His own blood
Because He loved you then 2000 years ago
and the same Jesus still cares about you now
This is the God that I am in love with
Anything good you see in me
any commitment
any kindness
any sacrifice
any desire to know God
is all birthed from Him
it is Him living in me and through me
Who Works in me to will and act according to His good purpose (as the Scripture says in Philippians 2:13 [New International Version])
wow that's been a long post
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