Craving for God

It's quite funny, sometimes you fail to realsie just how important some things are to you - until you are deprived of them.
Man what a feeling, i feel like i'm drained of my lifeblood like all my hopes have been dashed

...Just because i can't go to church tonight

It sounds insane - i didn't realise how much it mean't to me deep inside until i learn't that i had to look after my sister this evening. It wasn't actually something i had to do under my parents authority but it felt so wrong to leave her at home on her own - so i decided to stay.

God has a way of being so incredibly addictive, that i cling to Him without realising. Then i think what a blessing it is that He promises to be with me always - even unto the end of the age!
Nothing can overcome Him and He chooses to live inside of me - Amazing Grace

I think i need to learn that God is still with me (just as powerfully) even when i am not standing in His church. The real church is His family, which i am adopted into. - and noone can pluck me from His hand
Still i am thankful in a way for God releasing such a hunger for Him in me.

I can't describe it but it helps me pray.
So i'm gonna end here
Keep focussed on God and let Him draw you deeper


May God Bless you
and keep you