hows' life for all of you?
I'm not sure what to write today at all
I want to write a poem, but I'm not feeling that poetic.
lol
who knows...
I'm thinking at the moment about the phases and seasons we all go through in our walk with God.
Each one presenting it's own lessons to be learnt.
Though sometimes, like today, I don't feel like I'm really going anywhere. Today has felt like just a day in itself, without any real direction or breakthrough.
What is supposed to be happening?
Dusty days
the atmosphere stays still
my mind inside always looking for the next step
Where am I travelling?
What next will I learn about You God?
Here things feel dry
I feel I should be achieving something
or making an impact
but I'm stuck in the desert
far away from any horizon
stuck with myself
So I sit here
Picking at my faults
And think they are the reason why I feel so null
I get absorbed in my present state
Forgetting about Your purpose and Your plan
All I feel is where I am now
I'm frustated and annoyed
I question myself
Why can't I love people more?
Why am I so argumentative?
Why am I so lazy?
Why am I not enthusiastic now?
Where is my drive?
My passion?
I want to flow like a river
A strong river for You
But I sit here in the sand
Time passes
Inside my stirring thoughts wear themselves out
and I am wearied
Weak from my questions
Then in silent love
You help me look up
And then I see
All this while You are the same God
You've been watching over
As I've worked myself up over so many things
I wonder at Your thoughts
What are they?
I've been seeking inspiration
and energy
but sometimes I've looked to myself
I been wanting hear Your voice
But I've been so lost in my own thoughts
Where is the poetry, the vibrance?
I want to blossom for You
...But... I know You are there anyway...
King of Peace
And I know I am always in Your heart
Even though I can't always feel it
I know Your beauty shines
And Your love thrives
Your are alive despite the dryness
Delightful beauty
You are Teeming with Life and Light
I'm delighted in Who You are
Your wisdom prevails and lasts always
All of these blong to You
Holy Majesty
No matter what noise gets in the way
When it fades,
When my thoughts fade
You are still true
In this dryness
I can still rejoice in You
Because You are God anyway
And You always regin
From Heaven above with Absolute Power
May Your Kingdom come
...however I feel
May Your will be done
You great and faithful planner of my days
And of the days of the whole Earth
My eyes may not be lighted to Your purpose
But Your purpose still stands
And is surer than the rising of the Sun
Your do not forget the scheme of things LORD
And Your know what will come to fruition
You know when we'll break camp
And when we'll walk into the promised land.
My feelings do not always reflect the future
But Your Words command everything
The future is Yours
So I will not fret with these moments
when nothing seems to happen
Because You are the Alpha and the Omega
Meaning is Yours
My feelings are temporary
Your are Eternal
In You I will rest
God of all seasons
Thank You God
Awesome God
2 comments:
I was kind of thinking the same thing today. It has been cold and cloudy for so long. And then today the sun came out. So, I took some time away from what I was doing and I just sat in the sun. It felt so good to have that warm feeling on my skin again. And I thought to myself, that is how our walk is with God sometimes. We don't always feel the sun shinning on our souls but it is still there.
That thing on my website is from another website and I had where it was from on there but I added it later and the posting thing wasn't working. Blogger....
So, all I rememeber is that it was from some African person who hung it on their wall. I was going to do the same thing so I can always see it and use it as encouragement!
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